Monday, May 16, 2011

Mother's Day Part 2

I love how my mom is holding my hands in this picture.

OK, so I was gearing up for Mother's Day; trying to keep my emotions in check and get through the holiday with my my beautiful children in my mind and a smile on my face. I had really good intentions. Really really good intentions. I was going to prove to myself that I could handle it and that I really have progressed in this last roller coaster of a year. Then . . . I got sick. I wont go into details but I was stuck in bed and felt horrible. Not a good combination with everything going on. I felt emotionally worn down, physically exhausted and combined with the holiday, I was struggling. So what do you do when something like this happens? We all have trials. I don't think we can escape life without them. So what do you do when things get you so down you don't feel like coming up? I was accompanied in my bed with my sickness and my thoughts and after a lot of crying I realized that it's up to me. Somebody can come in and give me some medicine for my body but I'm the only one in charge of my thoughts and emotions. It's up to me . . . it's up to us. Of course God will be there to help us along the way, but it's our choice how we handle our situations. It's our choice how we deal with our emotions. Are we going to just go through the motions and let life pass us by or are we going to fight for what we want? My kids need a mom, my husband needs a wife, I need to feel like myself. I think those are great things to fight for. Maybe not even fighting, maybe it's just caring. Maybe it's if we stop caring and loving . . . maybe that's when we give up. If love is the most powerful emotion, why not have it on our side? Love will give us the strength to fight for what we have and want.

Here are some highlights of my Mother's Day.

Flowers from my sweet husband

Sweet cards from my girls

and sweet memories of my son Max, June 2010.

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Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day!!

Mother's Day . . .

maybe I will post about it when I don't feel like crying.

Until then enjoy this.

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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Easter at the Ranch

Before we headed up to San Luis Obispo, we hung out with my parents at the beach

We met Todd, Ashley, Nate, Meg and kids at the Ranch to enjoy the wide open space together and celebrate Easter.

Here are the boys getting ready for the paint gun battle. Harris v. May et. al.

The very cute cheerleaders

Happy Easter Charlie Bug!!

The kids had a pretty amazing Easter egg hunt in the back yard. I couldn't find the camera in time to catch some shots of the hunt but if any of you are visiting, keep an eye out for the golden egg, the Easter Bunny hid it a little too good :)

To finish the holiday of ATV rides, hot tubbing and cinnamon rolls Ryan talked about the Resurrection to the kids, Nate grilled up an amazing Easter feast and we all enjoyed each others company.

Happy Easter

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Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Lihue, Wailua and Napali Coast

Kid friendly shower on the boat, they loved it!

Caviar on the balcony, he loved it!

Freedom, she loved it!

Worlds largest maze . . .

did it!

Polynesian Cultural Center

Loved it!

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Monday, May 2, 2011

Kona and Kauai

Before heading to Kauai, we explored the relaxing town of Kona . . .

. . . rode the "Longest Water Slide in the World" . . .

and continued to enjoy Grammy & Papa.

In Kauai, while playing at a park at the beach, the girls found this chicken and her chicks. It was like finding gold!

We took a boat ride, aka puke ride, for a better view of the Napali Coast. The water was really rough and people were dropping like flies. It was a bad combination for our girls. Charlie definitely has motion sickness. I carry meds and a bowl in the car just in case. Abby is terrified of anything having to do with throwing up. I was worried it was going to be a really bad 4 hours.

Charlie tried to tough it out but decided sleep was the better alternative.


Look behind us . . .

This place is incredible!

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Sunday, May 1, 2011


A little hike to a big waterfall

quick stop to an old glass shop

Who says shaved ice, island cookies and diet coke isn't a great lunch?

Randy, Ryan, Abby and I took a helicopter ride over
macadamia groves, waterfalls and the Maunakea volcano.

Next stop Kaui!

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